Stop Letting The Enemy
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A couple nights ago, I was emotionally, mentally, & spiritually attacked. It was crazy. I was humbling myself in the sight of the Lord in prayer (James 4:10), and I was honest, "I don't know what to say Lord". It "freaked" me out because I always have something to say in prayer, but my mind was just blank. It made me sad because whenever I'm deep in prayer, I AM REVIVED. And I needed to be "recharged" that night. Complete transparency, I literally cried, "What is going on?! Is this an attack? Are you mad at me? What did I do?!" To feel like you're separated from God is a very scary thing. I can't do life without Him or go back to my past.
but somehow the anxious and doubting thoughts came in, "God has removed you from His presence."; "He is mad at you"; "You're a disappointment to Him.". I was entertaining these thoughts for a few and then the Holy Spirit kicked in and reminded me of Isaiah 41:10, Romans 8:14, & Ephesians 6:12. This was simply an attack from the enemy. He wanted me to forget who I belonged to. He wanted my emotions to get me to end the prayer, but I rebuked his works with The Word of God. I reminded him (in short),
"I am a son of God, and my God is with me, you are a deceiver. You've been one since the beginning. You hate me. You hate that I am created in the image of God and He gave me a second chance...NOT YOU. My savior rebuked you with The Word of God and I can do the same. SO James 4:7: I am submitted to my God. I am resisting your deceitful thoughts, and NOW you MUST flee serpent." It worked. Not gaslighting, It legit worked. I don't think we understand the power of the tongue, and the power CHRIST GAVE us. Afterwards, I praised God and exclaimed His faithfulness, and guess what? The Holy Spirit helped me with what to say in prayer. The end of the prayer, I was stained with the presence of The Lord. The Lord is faithful. The Lord is just. The Lord is good. Amen & Amen!